Day-40, Lockdown

Wow, it’s been 40 days…

I still can’t believe it, I have not stepped outside my house since five weeks and five days exactly. It does feel like a long time, then again after yesterday’s little time confession, I don’t know how long it feels or has been. Now everything, seems to go in a whirl, after recently learning that the lockdown has been extended even more. I was neither surprised nor angry, I knew this was going to happen. And, I don’t know what to feel now. If I am cheery and joyful, I feel guilty about the people dying. If I am sad all the time my parents get fed up of me, and they indirectly tell me, ‘you are ruining our vibe’. Because they too, are trying to cope in these trying times. They are trying to get the best out of these lockdown, and I now I am not helping with my mood.

I guess, after every 10 days. I am marking a milestone, as the number of days grow, so does our strength. Imagine, in the next ten days it will be lockdown day fifty. It will be like a half century, only this time I hope that we don’t complete a full century. I don’t even want to think of lockdown day 100. But, that idea seems vaguely possible. Then again, I don’t know what to believe and what not to believe.

I for one, still can’t trust that the entire world is on lockdown, everyone is inside their homes. Yet, everyday thousands are affected by the virus. I recently saw a documentary on coronavirus, and they told us that many people knew that the virus was coming since the past couple of years, they tried to warn people, but nobody listened. It’s tragic, isn’t it? What if we had listened, what if we had taken action? Would we still be under lockdown? So many questions in my brain right now.

Most scientists believe that this lockdown will go on till the next ten or twelve months. This fact scares me, they say everything gets better once you face the truth. But, this is the truth, every time I see some news based on the virus, how it will grow, how it will be the end of us all, how we will have to stay in our homes for one more year. I try to avoid all of them, I try to move forward, but I can’t because I haven’t faced the truth. Well, that’s all for today… 

2 thoughts on “Day-40, Lockdown

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      Dear Keya,

      I am reading your posts almost daily and am highly impressed. You have a talent and best family support.

      Today, I want to advise you to move over. You don’t have to wait for lifting of lockdown to restart life. Life is not on hold.

      There are many other aspects of life. Also you are intelligent and can make your own choice of the subject you can take interest and get happiness. It may be your turn to support your patents, make them smile by your happiness.

      Corona may be gone someday, but scar should not be with us forever.

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      The thing one fears most has no power. It’s one’s fear of it is what has the power. Facing the truth really will set one free. Anyone can run away, it’s super easy. Facing problems and working through them, that’s what makes one strong. Stop looking for a scapegoat in your life but be willing to face the truth within oneself and right one’s own wrongs. However unpleasant the truth may be, it is better to face it once & for all, to get used to it, and to proceed to build one’s life in accordance with it. God Bless & keep writing

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