Today was an ordinary day, where I did nothing out of the blue. Nothing extraordinary. But at night I felt frustrated and tired of living like this. It is just so boring, staying in the house all day and going nowhere, though you do nothing active or athletic it drains all your energy. I felt like crying due to the boredom, and I have never ever cried for this reason, because I have never been this bored! But like the saying,
‘When life gives you lemons, make lemonade’ that is what I am going to do.
I am not literally going to make a lemonade, I am going to look at the good parts of this situation. It is true, I am struggling to find the better halves of the lockdown. But, that does not mean that I am going to give up on this.
When I finished my book yesterday, I tried to find other such books on different websites. I looked everywhere, but I just couldn’t find a book I wanted to read.
Nothing was catching my eye, no story was interesting me.
So I was again sitting idly, staring at a blank wall. This bored me even more, I wailed desperately “I have nothing to do!”
I read everyday on different websites, as the cases grow day by day. My mother says that I should be thankful for staying inside my home, as there is no way that I can catch the virus. But the news of multiple people getting sick and fighting for their lives did not cheer me up.
Though my mom was right, but I just don’t know what to feel anymore, whether to be happy or sad,or excited or bored. From one perspective I can say that I am safe, I am healthy. This is exactly what one half of my brain tells me. But the other half, counts all the cons of staying at home and this half imagines what I would be doing, if I wasn’t under lockdown. This half makes me feel even more alone than ever, I keep reminding myself that all of this is not about me but this is done for my good. I am not the only one sitting at home, and wishing to go outside and breath the fresh air.
In some ways this outbreak also has its own positive outcomes, the healthy people who are ‘stuck’ at home. Are spending more time with their families than they ever have, because lets face it nowadays everyone is busy with their own work and they don’t have time to be with their loved ones. We will never have these many holidays before. Though, we are spending most of our summer holidays cooped up inside our homes but I like spending more time with my mom and dad.
Playing cards, board games, etc. Believe it or not, this virus is also good for the earth’s environment. Yes, when all of India is under lockdown all of the industries are closed, almost no travelling anywhere. This means no use of cars,buses,airplanes,etc. after 21 days the air would feel so clean and fresh. If you look carefully,you will notice that the trees are looking even more green!
So, I conclude by confessing that this article is a way to convince the other half of my brain to shut up!